I think I finally recognize
the you that lived inside my mind
is not the you I’ll find
when I return

Despite the fact I told myself
this chapter’s closed and on the shelf
we’re right back here because
I never learn

I know that I have always said
that I am content to wander
but the constant insecurity
has made me start to wonder

whether I’d be better zooming in
and narrowing my focus
from this net I’m casting scattershot
and pulling back in darkness

I don’t know if it’s right to think
“it happens for a reason”
or if everyone who says that
is just lacking in ambition

So we can either sit and wait
for it to happen to us
or we make the fear we’re carrying
a catalyst
to fuel us